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하늘; Her Name Means “Sky” [HYBRID: Drabble/Oneshot - GDYB] (Extended Author's Note Cut)

Someone very dear to me has passed away in the last few days of 2007 to a car accident. It was quite sudden...her cell was off, and immediately I thought something was wrong, and when I called her house...I do not want to go into detail, but I felt like etching a memory before this fic...she really did always support me and my writing...this sounds stupid, but I have written a letter maybe in hopes that she'd hear my words tonight.

For those that do not understand what I have written...her laughter and smiles I shall never forget. Her friendship was invaluable to me.  The theme of this fic is "invincibility"...because that's what we truly thought we were.  Even when I found out the truth, I thought "no way" and "this cannot be".  I held onto that childish idea we had.

As I wrote this fic, I let Epik High's “(also known as “Spirit” or “Soul”), play in the background. It was our favorite song. We used to make up words to it; pretending we were “invincible”, if that makes any sense. Now that this fic is done, I don't think I'll ever play or sing it again. It won't be the same. No more late night drives and just wasting gas, no more trips to Korea every other summer...no more concerts or clubbing...or bargaining loudly (for fun, of course) with familiar store owners in Korea...most of all, no more sleepovers in each other's basements, even though we were already definitely too old for all that. No more a lot of things that we used to do together. 

My only wish is that she found a place of happiness; a heaven.

(The following is written to give me some peace; written small so that you will not have to be distracted and so you will not have to scroll for so long.)


정화
,

나는 널 결코 잊지 않을 것야. 영원히 널 웃음 그리고 미소 잊지 않을 것. 천국에 있는 행복을 찾어
.
그거는 내 희망이다...

오늘 마지막 한번 우리가 좋아하는 노래 를 하고 있다. 알지? Epik High. "". 우리가
항상 노래방 에 그 것 했는데...ㅎㅎ...그러나, 다시 하지 않을걸갓테.

우리의 마음에 드는 부분 나온다:

“I will never die
세상과 부딪히고

쓰러뜨려도
내 피를 삼키고 일어나
I will never die
세상이 나를 찢고
무너뜨려도
눈물을 삼키고 일어나
I will never die
세상과 부딪히고
쓰러뜨려도
내 피를 삼키고 일어나."

그러나 우리는 항상 이렇게 노래 헤섯지...? ㅋㅋ...

"나는 죽지 않을 것야!

세상과 부딪히고
쓰러뜨려도
내 피를 삼키고 일어나

너도 죽지 않을 것야!

세상이 나를 찢고
무너뜨려도
눈물을 삼키고 일어나

우리는 죽지 않을 것야;

세상과 부딪히고
쓰러뜨려도
내 피를 삼키고 일어나.

결코 죽지 않을 것야.”

안녕. 친구...사랑한다. 이미 보고싶다.
이것은 우리 정화
...기념한다.

-- 이정화 (1988-2007) --

Comments

all i have to say is...thanks. a lot.
your words have far greater value than you realize.
Hi. Not sure which words you mean--these or maybe a comment I wrote (your name seems real familiar). I'm glad they did something for you though.
big bang

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